Misguided Butterfly....x

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  • 16th June
    2012
  • 16

The End

I am about to embark on my final week out here in Thailand and I honestly cannot believe where the time has gone. It has been a roller coaster of emotions and so many changes have taken place. I am not looking forward to leaving as it feels like home however some family time will be much appreciated and I look forward to the challenges that lay ahead for me.
To all of those who I have net and shared the last year with thank you all so much l will miss you all but for all those in the Uk bring on the road trips and weekends of parties :)
I’m not the person I was when I left in August but the change is definitely for the better.

  • 1st April
    2012
  • 01
  • 14th October
    2011
  • 14

In the words of “Friends With Benefits” movie….

'I can live without never having sex with you again, though it will be really hard. But I just want my best friend back because I'm in love with her!'

It was probably too soon for me to have watched the film however it appears to be the story of my life right now…I would do anything to have my best friend back, I miss you so much :(

  • 2nd August
    2011
  • 02

Once again it is time to turn over a new page, the page now says august, a new month is upon us just like that. And this can only mean one thing, my new chapter in life is about to commence, the suitcase lying on the conservatory floor half filled with clothes, the rucksack propping my bedroom door open and the goodbyes already rolling off my tongue. Thailand is almost here.

My brain is going at one hundred miles an hour, weighing up the pros and cons of this trip, did I make the right decisions? is it really worth it? will I be happy? If I said I wasn’t nervous or scared I would be lying. But it’s an adventure and I can only learn from the choices I make, hopefully it will all be worth it….but only time will tell.

  • 30th June
    2011
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10 months ago my ‘friends’ said it wouldn’t last, they said I would get hurt and heartbroken and played for a fool. But I refused to listen, I told them I knew what I was doing, my head and my heart for once were equal. They say love conquers all, and absence makes the heart grow fonder and I was willing to take the risk and believe in it all. I was willing to give it a shot and see where we would end up and that was final,nothing and no-one could change that. Now the time has passed and we have defied the odds, proved those none-believers wrong, we withstood the test of time, weathered the storm and have reached the other side. 

I wouldn’t change it it any other way. Yesterday, today and even tomorrow I will always love you <3

  • 22nd June
    2011
  • 22

I feel on top of the world right now, its not everyday a girl like me gets to graduate university with a first class degree..after everything all I want to do is scream HA at the none believers as clearly the hard work paid off. I have an amazing family and an amazing girl in my life and I couldnt be happier or more blessed. I am so lucky. I also now have so much to look forward to, Charlie coming home next week, graduation!, cornwall with the family and then THAILAND!! I cannot wait for what is now to come :)

  • 20th June
    2011
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Didn’t I give it all?
Tried my best,
Gave you everything I had,
Everything and no less,
Didn’t I do it right?
Did I let you down?

But go on and take it,
Take it all with you,
Don’t look back,
At this crumbling fool,
Just take it all,
With my love,
Take it all,
With my love……….

I dont want to lose you…..you mean the world to me, the roads been long and we’ve been apart for some time but thats coming to an end and we’ll soon be together again, please dont let it all slip away now, we’ve come too far to throw it all away….I love you….x

  • 19th June
    2011
  • 19

When everything looks bleak, there’s nothing like blasting out the playlists from days gone by, dancing around and letting the emotions go and reliving the moments and memories encrypted in the lyrics of each song……..

  • 13th June
    2011
  • 13

I hate having disagreements when we’re this far apart, ending on bad notes instead of highs, not being able to just hug it out to know it will be okay, not being able to look into your eyes or kiss the pain away.

We get grumpy and things get tough but nothing will change the way I feel about you, I chose to give you my heart and I wouldnt change that for the world. 

  • 9th June
    2011
  • 09

I have many flaws as a person, my self-confidence dwindles from time to time, I fail to see the positives others see in me, I feel ugly and incapable, my head and my heart conflict with eachother, my over active imagination picks holes where they’re not needed and create a monster in me, I push those closest to me away and put myself down and yet you chose to embrace all of me, you chose to love me and accept me. You’ve stood by me throughout ups and downs and helped me along the path for change. You’ve believed in me when I haven’t, and we’ve defied all of the odds. We’ve come a long way and proven we can, we’ve shown all those none-believers they were foolish and come out on top. You’ve loved me without me knowing or realising or without even showing it. You’ve given me something to focus on and work on whole heartedly. You’ve made so many things worth while. And prevented me from giving up. I’ve reached new highs and achieved so much, you’ve opened my eyes to so much.

I love you!

  • 9th June
    2011
  • 09

The little things that make you smile, the things that remind you of why you fell for them in the first place, and makes you fall for them all over again! The little reminders that you’re thought about and considered, loved and missed.

<3

  • 7th June
    2011
  • 07

There’s definately something nice about seeing the otherhalfs face after well over a month even if it is only via webcam…seeing those eyes and that smile the one that won me over all those months ago…reminding me how beautiful they are…and knowing soon I get to see them face to face and that they’re still mine….lucky doesn’t even come close!

Definately cannot wait to have you back in my life, sharing moments and making memories. I love you…..always have and always will xxxx